Have you ever realized how fast someone can change? How they were a completely different person in the beginning and as time went on, they kept changing and changing? You never truly realize how much a person changes until you take a step back and just look at them.
It’s disappointing to see them follow the hype and give into to peer pressure. To become so into drugs and partying scene. Seeing that they no longer give a shit about school and putting their life at risk like that.
It’s such a shame. But what more can you do? You don’t talk to them as much so it’s not your place to say anything. You want to make a difference in their lives, to try to get them back into the right place, but then you face the fact that you’re two completely different people and you can’t do anything about it.
Yeah, that feeling sucks. I hate it.
I love you too (:
Lately, that’s the attitude I’ve been having.
About school, about my safety, about my health, etc. It’s bad, I know. But I just don’t care about myself right now. I keep putting others before me and it’s taking a lot out of me. I’ve gotten to the point where I just don’t give a shit about anything that has to do with me.
I need to get refocused on school. Stop harming my health. Start watching out of my safety. I just need time to myself. Time to relax, to breathe, to take a break from everyone.
Too many dumb bitches acting like they run this site. It’s a blogging site, calm yourself with all that hype shit, saying you need more followers, and you don’t have enough notes. It’s a blogging site, none of that should matter.
There’s more to happiness than a fella making you happy. There’s other sources to genuine happiness.
I don’t think they’re are a problem, if you know your limits and still have your priorities straight while doing them.
You can’t say drugs/alcohol ruins lives and causes you to drop out of school, it’s the decisions you make that do. Drugs can’t put a gun to your head and say “drop out or I kill you”, it’s your own choice to do so.
So before you judge me for doing what I do, get to know me. I’m a straight A student who sleeps in her own bed at night, not some strangers floor. I respect my parents, & hold down for my friends <3
I find myself distancing myself from a lot of people now. I don’t talk to as many people. I don’t text or call as much as I use to. I just smile and laugh as I stand there with my friends during school but all I want to do is just leave. I don’t know what’s bothering me. Nothing seems to put a real smile on my face anymore. My happiness comes and goes. I wish for once I could just be happy for a long period of time.
Torrance. Lawndale. Redondo. Long beach. Carson. Hawthorne. & Gardena <3